the four right chords can make me cry

Things that changed in the short 4 days i was away at camp
1) They bought a new housephone.
2) My dad bought a motorbike.
3) Someone cleaned up my room! ARGH! I hate it when they do that!!! Now everything is where its not supposed to be! FRUSTRATING! And the most annoying part of all: while they messed up all my stuff, they failed to do the one thing i would have appreciated; get rid of that dead moth! it's STILL on my desk! ARGH!
4) Me.

LPC was abundant.
Never prayed so much, took a little getting used to, but i'm convinced of the need to pray more. So abundantly good to be among God's people, seeking Him together, there's just something so right about it, can feel it somewhere in my gut. Which reminds me, food was copious too.
The call is for depth.
Deep and authentic relationships with God and Man. That resonates with me.
Dr Loo is funny.
and that is an understatement. More than that, was really challenged by what he said, about what we should really value in this life, the question of what was God's ultimate plan when He created the world and how we can align with it etc.

but after LPC something trivial triggered off a wave of frustration (no it wasnt the table, although it did contribute). and all the things that have been simmering under the surface suddenly seized the opportunity and rose to the surface for air. Even a long spell of sleep only lessened it. And sunday found me wanting someone to talk to but not wanting to talk to anyone. So I didn't.

but i'm ok now. so let's not talk about this anymore.

Had a lot of thoughts about running after Uncle William's message on Heb 12:1-2 "Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."
Today I learnt what it was to have someone run alongside you. It really makes all the difference for me. Someone to pace you, someone to encourage you, someone to make you run faster than you would on your own. Like Dan said, running is actually a mental thing. You gotta pysche yourself up for it, not let yourself give up. If prayer is like breathing, and life is like a race, then we must pray really hard. And running is a lot like life, when you chiong up one slope so that you don't lose momentum, sometimes, it's just another slope ahead. But if you let yourself get discouraged, then you're gonna start walking, and once you start walking, it's almost impossible to start running again. Made me think about my role as CGL next year, to run alongside people, to lift the fallen and encourage those who have given up. And all the while praying (panting) like mad.

posted by beckyboo @ 12:00 AM